Polar Bear

Polar Bear
My Boy

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Melancholy Baby

Had a tough day emotionally.  I know, I know, it could be worse.  My butt could still be screaming at me every time I try to sit.  Yes, P90x is still kicking my butt.  Or the micromanaging boss could be breathing down my neck with busy work on Christmas...In fact my diet is going well-not great, but I'm a glass half empty kind of gal anyway.

For my Hot 100 goals, I am doing 'ok'.
1.  Lost 1.5 last week so will probably be around 185 by year end, which is a tad bit off my 161 goal, but still a size 8/10.
2.  Still losing, so that is good-P90X keeps my metabolism on it's toes I think-until Mother Nature stops by again.
3.  I am very able to stay well under 2000 calories, especially when there is no pasta or sugar on my plan-but I fear the maintenance.

Mentally, I am usually at my peak at this time of year.  I usually feel good as Christmas works its magic.

Not today, or even this season for that matter.  Might be because it is still unseasonably warm here in Texas...or-

While I fully realize that not being able to partake in the typical seasonal cuisine, as elegant as it may be, is probably sucking the fun from my addicted brain, I know it is more than that.

I know what my problem is-but acknowledging it doesn't make it hurt less, doesn't make the dull ache go away.

Because when it comes down to it-this is the first Christmas without my favorite reindeer.

That's all I have in me right now, folks, talk to you in a few days.

6 comments:

Life as a Caterpillar said...

Aww, he's beaut. How are you planning to deal with the xmas eating you talked about before? What did you and your hub decide to do?
x
lesley

Debbi Does Dinner Healthy said...

You so don't need food to have fun. Don't let that get you down. It's FOOD. There are so many other things to enjoy. You CAN maintain. If you want it bad enough, it won't be a problem. It will only be a problem if you let it be a problem. It's only food.

jennifer said...

What a sweet baby. I'm sorry, PM. I know how deeply the loss of a beloved pet can affect you, especially around the holidays. I hope you start to feel better soon.
Jennifer
http://iamabeginnerrunner.blogspot.com

Waisting Time said...

Cute picture. I asked for P90X for Christmas. Sorry you are feeling down. Hugs

The Fat Mom said...

That is the cutest little reindeer I've seen. I know that sorry is really never enough, but I hope you can look at the positive things.

Don't get me started on this Texas weather! I'm sick of it!

Bethanny said...

Hey girlie! Im liking your progress!