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Saturday, January 15, 2011

Freddy Mercury and Three Pounds

You may love, you may hate, or you may not know much about Freddy Mercury.  You may disagree with how he lived his life and not feel sympathetic about his death from AIDS, but you have to give me one thing-the man could sing the paint off the walls, and they don't make musicians like him anymore...take note Justin Bieber...

I love Queen, the group Mercury headed with such flashy substance for MANY years producing number #1 hit after #1 hit.

After hearing Under Pressure again today, a hit sung with a David Bowie cameo, I had to look up the lyrics, because I love the song a lot and I caught some interesting words at the end that sat with me...

'Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care for
The people on the edge of the night
And love dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure
Under pressure

I thought, "you sing it Freddy!"

Last week, I felt my diet, and my sanity, slipping away.  Felt cornered, felt slovenly, felt lazy, felt like all my hard work was falling apart.  I had been feeling that way for at least the previous six weeks as well.  This week I thought, "it's time, this is my body, I need to take care of business and stop dicking around, no one else can implant willpower into my brain or move my fat ass for me."  

So in spite of being sick two days this week and not exercising those days, I ate very carefully, stuck to my guns, and lost three pounds (and I didn't even poop before weighing in).

You see, one of the few things I like about myself and have confidence in, is that I respond to pressure, and respond well.  Maybe I let my rut get out of control because subconsciously I knew it would reach my tipping point, and then my type A would take over and I would kick my own ass again.  Maybe just last week I noticed the tipping point was near and that I was a mess and in the process of failing slowly.

Regardless of the impetus I felt the pressure, and was frightened to break it down and realize how old I am getting, how young my loved ones are dying, and that this is my last dance.  So how do I want to feel, who do I want to be, and how do I want to go out and spend my only trip on this spinning ball of rock? 

How do YOU want to go out?  It's time to change our way of caring about ourselves...whether it is the crushing on your chest and joints from pounds, or the pounding in your brain from the crushing pressure, it's time to turn it around...flip the grid and use the pressure to make a change, as time waits for no one.


The Merry said...

Congratulations on the 3 pounds! Good job :)

I remember seeing Queen in concert. The crowd was as flashily dressed as Freddy himself. I still remember one drag queen who walked the whole length of the center aisle, dragging a long feather boa. The entire Colliseum applauded.

Oh, and the singing was good too ;)

Auntie Mandy said...

I was watching "Bohemian Rhapsody" on You Tube one day when my middle child declared, "I REALLY like those silver suits!" Any man that thinks that fat bottomed girls make the rockin' world go round has my vote!

Auntie Mandy said...

Oh! AND Congrats on your three pound loss without pooing!

Ice Queen said...

Three pounds. You rock.

Queen rocks. Freddy Mercury was a genius. As far as his lifestyle is concerned, it was his. His business. I don't judge. :)

I also respond well to pressure. I go into a zone, go cool as a cucumber and do what has to be done. I think that is why I am thriving on Phase Four. :D

Patrick said...

I too love Queen's compilation of work; awesome!

Great job on the loss !!!

Anne H said...

3 pounds - very good!
and I love me some Queen!

Waisting Time said...

Good job turning it around! What comes to mind... we are the champions!

Chubby McGee said...

3 lbs. = awesome job!

And Freddy Mercury is a god. I'm certain of it!

Tim said...

Nice one on the loss!!

As for Queen, they are my FAVOURITE band of all time. Freddie is a genius!

My dad saw them live but he died before I could see them live as a full group.

I want to see Queen + Paul Rodgers when they tour next (whenever that will be) but I know it wont be the same without the legend singing.

The Fat Mom said...

I laughed out loud at the Justin Bieber comment!!!

Awesome job with the loss this week. And it's always nice to see a loss like that without having a "cheat poop". Way to go!

Jules said...

I agree with Karen....What came to mind..under pressure...We are the champions!

Big White Granny Panties said...

Love Queen. Love Bowie. Adore Todd Rundgren.
How do I want to go out? I want to die in a bizarre ballooning accident over Nepal at the age of 93. I hope my funeral is HUGE.