Get your minds out of the gutter, you filthy mc nasties!!!
I was harkened back to 'take backs' today...juvenile things, those take backs.
Take back=once you do or give something, you can take it back and negate it.
As a kid, we always said 'no take backs' especially when we had traded up for better lunch snacks.
But today, I was driving home in the car, and thought about my husband's cookies on my kitchen counter. BTW, this happens often, my fantasizing about food items...
So I went through my typical justification for eating one or two, down to the calorie addition to my daily food input amount.
And then I decided on one cookie. And then I felt guilty, as if I had ALREADY eaten the cookie. I had the motivation ready and waiting to work out longer to burn off the calories, and I hadn't even SNIFFED the goods yet.
Then I thought-WHOA NELLIE. That is so fucked up. I had them eaten, worked off, and felt the resulting guilt, before I even got home.
Then I realized that I am not 10, I CAN do a take back. I don't want the cookie anymore, and you know what? Since I hadn't SWALLOWED the cookie, then I didn't have to feel all those feelings, and I could still REJECT THE COOKIE.
We are not kids anymore...how many times have you debated about food items that you probably should not eat and decided to eat them well before the item was in your mouth, and then followed through?
Fact is that we can change our minds, we can take back that decision, until we swallow. So don't let yourself off the hook, making a decision doesn't mean following it through and consuming the demon food, you can CHANGE your mind.
So from here on out, I reserve the right for take backs. 'Cause my fantasies may not always be healthy, but they don't have to translate to me actually MAKING those unhealthy choices based on those food-gasms. So I'm gonna take back my power of choice, hit the pause button, and REJECT THE COOKIE.