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Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Until I Swallow

Get your minds out of the gutter, you filthy mc nasties!!!

I was harkened back to 'take backs' today...juvenile things, those take backs.

Take back=once you do or give something, you can take it back and negate it.

As a kid, we always said 'no take backs' especially when we had traded up for better lunch snacks.

But today, I was driving home in the car, and thought about my husband's cookies on my kitchen counter.  BTW, this happens often, my fantasizing about food items...

So I went through my typical justification for eating one or two, down to the calorie addition to my daily food input amount.

And then I decided on one cookie.  And then I felt guilty, as if I had ALREADY eaten the cookie.  I had the motivation ready and waiting to work out longer to burn off the calories, and I hadn't even SNIFFED the goods yet.

Then I thought-WHOA NELLIE.  That is so fucked up.  I had them eaten, worked off, and felt the resulting guilt, before I even got home.

Then I realized that I am not 10, I CAN do a take back.  I don't want the cookie anymore, and you know what?  Since I hadn't SWALLOWED the cookie, then I didn't have to feel all those feelings, and I could still REJECT THE COOKIE.

We are not kids anymore...how many times have you debated about food items that you probably should not eat and decided to eat them well before the item was in your mouth, and then followed through?

Fact is that we can change our minds, we can take back that decision, until we swallow.  So don't let yourself off the hook, making a decision doesn't mean following it through and consuming the demon food, you can CHANGE your mind.

So from here on out, I reserve the right for take backs.  'Cause my fantasies may not always be healthy, but they don't have to translate to me actually MAKING those unhealthy choices based on those food-gasms.  So I'm gonna take back my power of choice, hit the pause button, and REJECT THE COOKIE.

21 comments:

The Merry said...

Good move -- and it serves that cookie right. Shame on it, luring you on like that.

Ice Queen said...

Gutter? I? Nevah! *polishes ever so slightly tarnished halo*

Kelty said...

So true!!! Once the decision to eat something is made I feel like it's a done deal! Gotta work on that :D

Shabby Chic Mom said...

Omg first off I didn't even think about your title until I read your first line lmao. Then I let out a LOL and its 230am and I hope I didn't wake the hubby or baby. Im up sick boooo. Anyhoo
take backs rock, good job on not swallowing!!

jennifer said...

Wow. I can't tell you how often I have done this, and I've never even really thought about it before! Deciding to eat something definitely makes me feel just as guilty as I do for actually eating it. In fact, sometimes eating it is almost a relief because then the guilt at least has somewhere to go! Wow...I'm a sick, sick puppy!

Plump Nonfiction said...

If I wanted to eat something, I would of eaten around it. Meaning, I would of started snacking on other stuff and then would of had what I wanted in the end anyway. For me, a little taste is better. For a while now, I have been able to resist it all but I still remember my snack around routine. Things have changed so much...

Anne H said...

That is wonderful!
What a realization.
Slug-bug.....no punch back!

Karen said...

Good for you!

Christie said...

I do this all the time...why? Funny thing...I never noticed I did it until I read this and realized I did it last night on the way home and this morning on the way into work. Love your Blog!

www.lifeinsidetheblubbersarcophagus.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

I do the same thing! I am not always in control, but most of the time I am.

A. said...

Yeeeaaah, I've done that. It's usually when we go out to eat, and I know for a fact that things are not as good out as they are at home, but you've given me a good way to prevent myself from eating it mindlessly, even while wracked with guilt. Lol.

The Ninja said...

great observations, very interesting. It takes me a long time to get over guilt after consuming non-diet foods. Why do we put ourselves through that?

Chubby McGee said...

Amen! Did this last night with M&Ms...those evil, little, colorful beasts. I went into the kitchen and held the bag in my hand and said, out loud, "NO! Not doing this!"

Whoot hoot.

the strawberry said...

I'm more likely to end up over eating on other snacks trying to avoid the "bad" food.. Which sometimes leads to MORE calories, and sometimes I'd end up eating the bad food later (within the week). Learning that if I really do want something bad enough, I have 2 options- keep it out of the damn house, or have a smaller portion! Good job not swallowing ;)

Anonymous said...

awesome post!!

REJECT THE COOKIES!

Tim said...

I love this post purely because I am exactly the same when it comes to thinking about food.

Have a great day :)

Bethanny said...

I think about food waaaaaaayyyyy to much. It is out of control!

Michele said...

Love this post! Take backs away!

Patrick said...

I've perfected fantasizing about food items, it is hitting the pause button I need to work on.

Ginger aka Gidget said...

Right now I'm selling girl scout cookies and everyone always asks how I do it without eating the box. Fortunately I don't like them. Now, if I were selling warm toll-house cookies- all hell would break loose. But, I digress. Cookies are evil.

By the way, I nominated you for a blog award. ;)

Twix said...

AWESOME!!